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Name: Jackie
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| xanga has changed so much since i started writing this way back when...
craaaazaaayyyy
i need a new job really bad, and i think i might try another restaurant/catering hall its pretty cool
so im pretty much procrastinating studying for my law test, but it's ok, i really should write in this more (which is the summary of the last 5 or so entries)
kayla and nicole are still pretty awesome and few of the only people i could stand
and everything seems to be ok
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| Nothing cheers me up like a good ol' fashion long island hardcore show =)
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| So I've realized that I have not had time to myself in a long long time...
I'm tired, and I just can't give a part of myself to anyone anymore. I don't have the mental or physical capacity to do so. To sacrifice my own well being for the pleasure and content of others is not something I can do constantly.
'Press Stop, even Pause, just for one second, please.'
These past couple months have just been one big blur. Everything has been going by so fast and I'm just rushing to catch up. I need time to process what I want and what I want to become, and the procedures to take to reach my goals and destinations.
'Rewind.'
I want to start over. Somewhere new, nice, and sunny. I want to go to California, I don't know why. People seem simpler there, I wouldn't have to lie so much. Everything wouldn't be so complicated, everyone wouldn't be so complicated. They wouldn't expect so much of me. They wouldn't be so disappointed of me.
That's what I feel.
That I disappoint everyone, all the time.
'Fast forward'
I don't even know.
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| So i haven't written in this thing in a while, but i'm stuck here in syracuse with nothing to do until our friend comes back from pledging.
So in addition to my syracuse visit, i have also visited albany in attempts to form a more proper comparison for dorming schools and my pathetic commuting school. Albany was all kinds of fun, Syracuse not so much. However, I did spend my first night here in a shady ass frat house, high on everything I could get my hands on. So i might just be having a bad first experience.
I started a job at a catering hall now as a waitress, working with anthony, nicole, and kayla. This has been pretty fun & hopefully i'll be able to drive out there myself soon. I would go into more detail about my pathetic existence, however, now everyone's awake so I can't write without being watched.
I'll write again soon, hopefully.
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